sweater weather

Things that make me stupid amounts of happy as of this moment:
 morning drinks
red lips and polka dots
planning a shoot I daydreamed on my drive
fancy gentlemen shoes
the word iridescent
and this song

Looking forward to sweater weather 


catch me

Not because I need you
but only cause I sleep better knowing you're near
what if there's a day I need you
what if you aren't there
 "in time all unanswered questions dissolve into stardust"- unknown

For my littles:

For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.
- Benjamin button


Color my world - project 26

I was tickled to be invited in joining a photo group project.
There are few things I love more than interpretative photos. Sadly my professional blogs still down and in the process of being recovered.
So here you go, my first attempt

Project 26 - color my world 
all you have to do is open your eyes...



We are melting over here, I finally wised up and bought a a/c unit. I have a very small window of comfort, its about a 2 degree difference. For example, in the summer I like it at 67-69 degrees. As for my winter its 71-73 degrees besides first thing in the morning, when I crank it up to 75 so I can sit with a blanket and my toes on the vent. Anyways this 103 degree weather isnt working for me. I am not a summer girl, I was made for autumn. This weeks made me feel slightly defeated. First off, my host for my website and blog is having issues, therefor I currently have no site. Then while burning one of my many weddings I need to get in the mail, my disc drive decided it was sick of doing its ONE AND ONLY job and went on strike. Here is to tomorrow, wonder what it will bring.


mondays melody

Let everything happen to you
beauty and terror
just keep going, no feeling is final
-maria rilke

enjoy one of my favorites ... the videos amazing 
happy Monday


little ones lost

Yesterday was heavy, 
I had never been to a funeral. 
I had never seen a casket so small.
I cant remember what its like to not be a mom....
So I cant imagine what its like to be given that gift and have it stolen.
I took pictures. 
I froze the pain. 
I don't know how I feel about that. 
I watched them melt into tears countless times and had to put the camera down for a few minutes. 
I couldn't do it....
I have to remind myself that heartache only makes happiness sweeter. 
That when you feel so incredibly cold, you become a better seeker of the sun.
When I can share these images I will but, with the hope that you remind yourself everyday
 to be thankful for those messes on the kitchen floor and the love yous at night.
Nothing but prayers for their family.


inside the box

Only a complete nerd would take pictures of a camera and I take ownership for being just that.
I have been dreaming of square format for far too long and today my one true love was delivered to my door.


Happy Birthday america

  While Utah goes up in flames we have been keeping cool with Popsicles and sprinklers. Im not gonna lie, having a swamp coolers no fun. Its honestly not that bad but, when you work from home and sit at a computer all day its less than ideal. I hope everyone has wonderful plans for the forth, mine are simple and consist of my camera, some fireworks and my babies. 
Here are some pictures I snapped of them a couple weeks ago. 
We spend all day in our swimsuits.
happy 4th tomorrow

My baby

He is six
He completely owns me
He is a lover of raw salmon on sushi
He sings along with the head and the heart
He rocks suspenders....
and he has a way with his expressions that speaks volumes.