I am a walking contradiction.
I am simple yet, so very complicated. I like to think that makes me interesting to some degree but, sometimes it just makes me feel crazy. Im hungry...scratch that, I am starving. Constantly craving something new, something better, anything that will further project the way I see the world and how I photograph it. I understand myself well, I feel like I have a good grip and I have come to terms with the fact I will never win this battle. I will never be content, ever. In some areas of life this isn't a positive trait but in my little world of cameras and words, its a good thing. Makes me hair pulling crazy but its good. I am no where near the goals I have for myself. Not even close. But that nagging little voice I am constantly battling with assures me, I fight because I need to be something great. I need to do something beautiful and inspiring. This need can literally bring me to tears of frustration. Wanting to translate your heart and what you love into a photograph isnt a easy task. As long as emotions the center of my image I know I will get there...
Today I felt like I lost the battle and just said to myself, I quit.
I dont know which way to go, which project to focus on, what I want to implement next.
So instead, I sat down on my couch and repeated... I quit.
Which in reality means tomorrow I will try harder.
These moments are just growing pains.....