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6.12.2011

something worth pondering


This movie was the most depressing movie ever, hands down...I had to shut it off. But there was a big part of me that enjoyed the concept. Its one I have been working with on a project ....

picturesque |ˌpik ch əˈresk|adjectivevisually attractiveesp. in a quaint or pretty style :

I have been thinking a lot lately. I have come to terms with the fact, I am not your average girl, I do not have your average views and I will never have a average love story. I used to think that was due to the fact I'm passionate. I believed I was destined for something more than average. I also thought with all the work I did, I deserved something extra special. I was a "ice queen" when dating and only one guy warmed my heart, now I'm trying to figure out whats colder than ice. Maybe, I am not meant for that kind of picturesque story at all. If thats the case why I'm a unable to erase the images from my mind. I swear they are straight out of the 50s. Oddly enough its what I want. I want to take care of my family, master our favorite meals, have family home evening and sit on the porch at night re hashing our day. I want long work days, making goals and planning trips. I want to have the normality of it all. I am capable of doing it all by myself. I understand the reality, I know the everyday humdrum, my down fall is I have a sentimental heart. Love is a word that gets thrown around far too easily. Last year I had a little debate and we wrote down the levels of love, there were 4.  Level 4 is the goal in life and I truly believe few people reach it. I know without a doubt where I stand, who and what I love.  I will have my normal, I will make our dinner, I will work long days and we will be happy. Just the three of us...

1 comment:

ashley @ divorced at 20 said...

this reminds me of the movie "the holiday" where him and his kids are called the three musketeers