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5.17.2011

Tornado

(this song is one million times better in the car and LOUD) 
I LOVED this song from the moment I heard it. It was mid last year and I found myself driving aimlessly with it on repeat. I tend to do that when I am OCD about a melody. I made excuses for taking the long way home, such as... I was looking for locations to shoot ... or there might be traffic if I stuck to the main road...


I feel this need to "reinvent" myself. 

I haven't analyzed it long enough to understand what exactly is fueling it.

I am unsure if its a positive craving or a destructive one.  

Its been very overwhelming, as if I could jump out of my own skin to do it.


I don't want to be complacent in my life, but I want to feel content.

I love the core pieces of myself. I just need change.... 

 I don't think I can ignore it much longer. 

I honestly want nothing more than to be a good mother and wife.

 I want a happy family, a home and I love yous said at night.

 I want to feel inspired and be able to express myself. I want to create beauty....

 I was made for those things. I was meant to be safe and inspired. 

I have moments I struggle having faith.

 I should have more of it, its just easier said than done.

 Like all things in life...

if its worth having, it will most likely be hard.


xoxo
B


Geez, sorry if my blogs heavy for a while. On a lighter note, I got glasses.... 


I feel instantly sophisticated the moment I put them on. lol

Ill post a pic soon. 







5 comments:

Crystal said...

oh no! do you have bad eyes? my eyesight sucks--i hate having glasses.

Anonymous said...

love yourself, you are an incredibly talented woman and dedicated mom. I hope you post a little bit about what happened recently with your marriage so your blog followers can continue to learn from you and be inspired by your faith and hopefully help in whatever way possible! xoxo

Shaylynn said...

You will change the world B.

An artist requires heartache to understand art. You understand it through and through, if that makes sense.

love you.

Katie said...

I totally get where you're coming from. One of my biggest fears is that I will never just be content... and yet I don't want to be complacent either, because that can't be a good thing - I want to grow. It's like I'm in a constant battle, and as frustrating as it is, I actually kind of like it. Like I'm addicted to it. I just want to experience everything and I have no patience! Anyways, I love reading your thoughts - its nice to know I'm not the only crazy out there. (I hope you know I mean that in the nicest way possible. lol) Hope you are doing well and enjoying your own addictive battle. :)

Vic, Linds, and the girls... said...

Brooke. Hope you are doing okay!!! Know you are in my thoughts. Xoxo