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5.23.2011

Braille and Gold



Why do we try to run....
Run from the things that we aren't ready to face up to? It doesn't change our reality, it doesn't shield us from the pain. Its only delaying moving forward. I find it ironic I am a photographer of love. Sometimes I think its cruel I am not able to run like most people can. Don't get me wrong, I whole heartedly love my job. I love seeing people at such a high point in their lives. I tend to cry, always have with wedding world. Wither it the first dance, a fathers toast or simply the way the groom watches his bride with a protective, yet adoring gaze. Think of it like a recovering alcoholic working in a bar...  lately I am thankful my cameras large enough to hide a few tears rolling down my cheek while the music plays. I hope I don't offend former or current clients as I explain, just know I adore weddings and love in general. I think its an honor to give my couples images that depict their love. They will have a tangible reminder of the irrefutable connection between them, that they can get through anything together. I am well aware of the "show."  Its not that the I am belittling the love between the couple, but its the euphoric stage of love. Its the beginning, the dreams are big and the idea of failing is impossible. The toast are always about the bright eyed couple and how perfect they are together. All the sweet stories of boy meets girl, yet only a few people will remind them of the work ahead. I don't think it sinks in that it will be HARD work. Happiness is work, love is work, being a parent is work ... life in general is work. I cant remember where I was, or who told me this, but it was something that stuck with me. We are twice as motivated in working to avoid pain, than working towards happiness. I am confident if you think about your recent choices, you can agree its a true statement. Sometimes I find myself running. Im okay 84% of the time, but there are moments I have no choice, but to sprint away from the daunting feeling looming. I just need to hide and take an hour to breathe, recoup so I can have the gumption to keep up the pace of my life. I know the work will pay off.

Which brings me to my latest project, I can not wait to see how it unfolds. I am finally getting my coffee table book and my etsy shop going. My ideas, my heart and every piece of me will be poured into the images. Im working on the story lines daily. It will not be a easy task, it will take time...
 but it finally has a name...

Braille and Gold 

wish me luck
B

6 comments:

Maggy said...

GOOD LUCK :)!!!! cant wait to see your artwork!

Lindsay Teter said...

good luck! you're amazing and i can't wait to see. i agree 100% with everything you have written...

Shaylynn said...

I love you my Btog!

You are a magical creature.. I can't wait til I get to pay you to capture someone who loves me. one day. one day.

I want a signed copy of my book, deal. Deal, and I want you to sign it in GOLD i will settle for nothing less.

I love that you are honest in your blogs, still.

Longhurst Family said...

I will buy a signed one. :)

Kacie said...

I'm way excited to see everything you're doing. I love all your work and am so envious of your talent!

Marce said...

your passion is MAGIC, brooke! MAGIC! and i know that so many of us out there appreciate and admire your passion, so MUCH. keep doing what you're doing- you are amazing- and can do HARD things.

can't wait to see Braille and Gold- i agree with Shay- i want a copy signed in gold- i will settle for nothing less :)

you know you still have a place to stay here in the Bay area whenever you want, right? i hope you do.

and know, i am just a phone call away, if you ever just want to talk. i know you have tons of people in your life and are a busy woman- but i am always here to listen. always. (and i'm an hour earlier, too- so it's not so late here as it is there).

anyway- now i'm rambling. love you friend and think of you often.

PS i was going through my journal this last weekend, and i found a letter written from you from one our sleepovers way back when. it made me laugh- especially that you wrote "you're drooling and snoring right now- geeze, take a breath" HAHA. we were such dorks! i love it. :)

PPS love the new blog layout.