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4.19.2011

Whole hearted

I woke up at 4am from a nightmare that left a heavy weight on my mind and my chest. We all know that feeling, the one where it takes you half the day to shake it off. I tossed and turned, but was unable to fall back asleep. Out of pure restlessness I began messing around on my laptop in bed, trying to distract myself from that looming feeling. I stumbled upon a video a friend posted.... Now I am sure most of you are thinking, whoa this is cheesy or who watches that stuff, but its truly something that pertains to everyone. I had to share it
I don't care who you are, what you claim to feel or how you bottle your thoughts and emotions.... at some point in life we all crack and become vulnerable. Its extremely scary and daunting to think if we want to be truly happy... we have to do hard things. Sometimes I reflect about my life and feel like I am already 45 years old. I have had some hard moments, some of which have been due to my own choices. Other moments, I have honestly felt like a sitting duck repeatedly having bombs dropped on me. That's the mind set I want to change. Because each hard moment is a chance for me to learn something great. It might make me feel twenty years older but I know it will be worth it. We cannot live life thinking we can make everything that is uncertain, certain.

xoxo
B

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

well stated.

twitch said...

I agree with Anonymous. VERY well stated.

Longhurst Family said...

true true

christina marie said...

You have a beautiful way of putting things, very well said, and so true! Love your cute self!

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Amy said...

Good words! And So sorry about everything you are going through!!! You are so amazing and seem like such a strong gal! Cassi brought all those clothes and lets just say Paisli already had more clothes than any little baby will ever need, but we may have added some to her collection! So thanks!!! Good luck on your new adventure!!!
xxoo

ashley @ divorced and 21 said...

amazing.

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad you watched this! I didn't think anyone would being twenty minutes long, but it totally made me think and realize things about myself and my life that were needed at the time. However, I ended up deleting it because my mother in law commented something dumb about it that ruined it for me... Lol. Anyways, miss youand hope things are going good!

Anonymous said...

It's Courtney btw, can't remember my new password:).