I have always felt like this song was written for me... it is mine.
When I am in a certain mood there are few songs that make me feel calm. I want to live with purpose and vigor...I refuse to let anything cripple me. I have always openly admitted I have struggled with anxiety. While living in North Carolina as a little girl I couldn't understand what that feeling was. I went through a short phase where I was afraid of traveling far from home. A sense of fear and panic would overwhelm me and I would run so fast my vision went blurry.... I would finally reach my front porch, completely out of breath and magically the sense of panic was gone, I was safe. When living in Missouri I was petrified of tornado's and natural disasters. I was a 10 year old who watched weather channel instead of cartoons, strictly out of fear. I struggled focusing on anything but the topic fueling the anxiety.
I can look back now and see the pattern. I let my anxiety land on a topic and run wild. There was no traumatic incident in my life or issue that triggered it as a child.... it was just there. I had a safe, stable home with a wonderful God loving family. It wasn't until I got older I began to understand what it was. It had a name.... a label with a definition. With time I learned how to keep it at bay. It was a process and when it was at its peak, very difficult to bare. But my case, it was never serious enough I needed medication, plus I have never been a fan of being dependent on anything but myself. I find a sense of pride and accomplishment in growing and learning how to handle things on my own. I could work through it, find its roots. I would learn its triggers and how to avoid it escalating. I found my own medications and they do indeed work. I use music, as if it creates a bubble of tranquility where I can slow down and breathe. So when I have those few moments where I feel it in my chest, my mind racing a million miles a hour for no reason at all, but searching for a topic to let my anxiety land on... I have my remedy. This song is one of them...enjoy
*** Disclaimer: I am not against taking medications for any kind of imbalance. My case is far from extreme and not in need of medical attention. Please do not take offense to this post. I am not belittling what is such a serious issue for some people.