Today the world is vibrant unlike any other. I cant quite explain the range of emotions that I experienced, mostly because I am still trying to process them
most importantly love but not just regular love......the poetic kind.
My day was going to be typical, full of edits, shoots and running around. I got up early to head south for some groomals and planned on meeting steven afterwards. For the last few weeks I have heard we would take turns going on a helicopter ride with Steven's uncle. Nothing was ever set and frankly steven didn't seem to thrilled about going. I thought little of it till mary lynn (stevens mother) raved how beautiful it was. Being the nature loving girl I am I really wanted to go. Plus who doesn't love flying above the world and getting a birds eye view. Last night I got a lot of mixed signals, one minute steven didn't want to go, the next was if I was going to be late he would just take a buddy up. At one point I said "just take your buddy if you are so worried. I have to be sure my bride gets my full attention, I cant promise I will be on time."
Thankfully my groomals went off without a hitch, I was able to meet him and I was still clueless. We met his uncle at the airport and took off towards little cottonwood canyon. Then flew over Heber (which is where our first date was), park city and headed toward emigration canyon. I was in awe of how beautiful it was and loved feeling boundless. There is a spot in emigration canyon steven and I stopped at early in our relationship. As cheesy as it sounds that was the moment I realized I was falling for him. I had never felt anything like I did that night....
Well as we neared the top I saw hikers. I began telling steven I wanted to hike there..... when I saw my name on a banner
Those werent hikers, they were Steven's family! I turned to him and repeated countless times, "what are you doing... what are you doing, oh my gosh what are you doing"
We landed at the top of a beautiful mountain, got out and then it went blurry...I was SO nervous.I remember telling myself to focus...relax and breathe. His whole family was there waiting with video cameras and ready to greet us. I had never felt more on display but thrilled at the same time. He got down on his knee and said his little speech. Steven, the day, the ring ...all of it was perfect! We flew back and it began in sink in. I was engaged, and he was mine.
Now let me give you a little backstory....
I am a total romantic but never believed in it. I adored the idea of it all, I labeled people who claimed blissful love to be naive. In my mind the world doesnt work that way. Rarely would I see a couple and think wow ...I can FEEL how much they love each other. My friends mocked my dating style, theories and rules I had set. I met Steven and all my theories were shattered. I had felt a sense of power within my rules which he robbed of me. I had lost control... I was falling and I was afraid. My fear quickly changed from the loss of control to the fear of him not being mine. I had to have him... and now I do I am beyond lucky
He silences the noise and gives me something real to believe in.
The faceless man in all my plans and daydreams is no longer faceless.