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10.20.2009

Wreckless girl



I know I seem to blog a lot of serious thoughts. That is who I am and also where I am in life. I laugh, smile and find joys in the little gifts we are given, but I also carry a lot of weight that gives me a different outlook. I have always been a passionate person but I would say I am overloaded right now. I have a lot of fear about things, normal fears we all have .... but ironically enough I have become more wreckless. I have almost lost those little warning signals that go off when something is dangerous. (This loss of flashing red lights only applies to me and has no impact on my children.) Either I have become numb or I really need a thrill in my life.
I had my family pictures taken tonight and I would have to say it was bittersweet..... this photo brought me to tears. I have these sweet perfect little children that look to me to show them the ropes on life. Truth is I am just trying to figure it out myself......I miss my flashing red lights.


(*** the writing maybe sound a little more sad than I would like..oops. Im fine guys, just being honest that I must need a thrill ;)

10.14.2009

Define me


Honesty:
Is difficult for me ...not because I have a need to lie but because I dont want to be exposed

Passion:
comes in many forms

Trust:
Is something I struggle to do

L.O.V.E:
Is something that I deal with constantly.....we have a love hate relationship
(I swear somedays I want to play out a scene from the wedding singer)
(But that would get me fired )

Faith:
Is the only thing I have

Happiness:
Is the goal here...I make a effort everyday
I am happy

Strength:
Is something I pride myself on

Independent:
to a fault

Beauty:
Is something I love to find in everyone

Perfect:
my expectations are high...maybe to high

Peace:
Is something I have been taught how to find...although it can be a struggle

Sleep:
Is something I seem to do without

My heart:
belongs to my children

Expression:
is a constant desire

Hope:
I hope I can update some of these definitions soon

Music:
creates everything else in my world.....so enjoy this little number
from me to you
xoxo








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10.12.2009

.....pride and joy

I believe these to be true
it's nothing sacred nothing new
no one tells you when it's time
there are no warnings only signs
then you know that you're alone
not a child anymore, but you're still scared
all your mountains turn to rocks
all your oceans turn to drops
they are nothing like you thought
you can't be something you are not
life is not a looking glass
don't get tangled in you past
like I am learning not to


also loving



I found brandi when I heard -the story- it broke into my top ten favorites.(yes I have strict music rules and ratings :) ) I love her writing , I wish I could be as bold as honest as she is. Its refreshing and makes for wonderful drive music for my busy life
(photo courtesy of megs)


10.02.2009

ahhh sweet sounds


(side note...Im going red folks)

Even if you are not a twilight fan at least the soundtrack is solid! I was left wanting more from this artist.
This is my newest theme song. yes...yes I have theme songs for my life....week..month ..day however long its good for.
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